I have every right to be angry
I have every right
To stand here and beat my chest
Whilst screaming out fury
From the pit of my lungs
I have been lied to and cheated
I have been let down
Believed to be defeated
I have been knocked back
Pushed this way and that
But still I got back up
I have been abandoned
I have been bruised
I have been insulted
I have been abused
And still all I want is truth
I have been stifled
I have been blinded
I have been stunted
I have been haunted
By so many ghosts of the past
I have been verbally savaged
My whole body has been
Tortured, literally ravished
By more than just
The hands of a man
I have been labelled
I have been tainted
I have been shunned no end
I have been betrayed
By those calling themselves
‘Family’ and ‘friends’
They didn’t know
I’d already figured it
To be the end
I have every right to be angry
I have every right
To beat my chest in pain
But instead I stay silent
With the raging fury
Burning and boiling
From the inside out
But safely contained within
If I could write away this wrath
Then I surely would
But I fear that each word
That I dare to scrawl
Will burns holes upon the
Pages they are scribed
My contempt for feelings
I thought I had left behind
Like doubt, mistrust
And a sense of things
Not being right
Gave me all the reason
To rise up and fly
Words like envy and jealousy
Are the names of the
Ugly black birds that fly by
Up here I’m out of reach
No matter the anchors
That have been
Weighted and tied
Up here, I have no need
Of false-hearted words
I can see through
Many a disguise
I have every right to be angry
I have every right
To beat my chest and cry
Maybe it’s just as well
I keep that beast inside…
Sharon Carter-Wray
(Sunday 9thDecember 2018)