I’m not an easy person to forget

I, am not an easy person to forget

Though my presence may be gone

Memories of me definitely live on.

So many times I have been revisited

By many who have walked away

Only to somehow find their way

Back to me again

I seldom cut ties

I let the strings grow long

Unfinished business

Or for things left undone

They have been touched by me

So, they have to come

Words spoken or not, how I made them feel

They all have a tiny part of them

That only I can heal…

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Tues 22^nd Oct 2019)

06/04/2020 0

Getting ready to fly

Image by michel kwan from Pixabay- dove-2680487_1920

Getting ready to fly

I stand here

Feeling like I’m on the verge

Of something amazing

As though something

I have wanted to come about

Is literally, just around the corner

But what I don’t know

Is what it is

For a while I visited an old dark place

That was oh so familiar in my mind

That like the true friend

When all else have gone

Remains to stay behind

But it was merely a visit

No longer a place I wished to

Dwell in or hide

It was just the memory of

The woman I left behind

Though many parts of her had slowly died

There are just as many that still thrive

Much as I was broken then

I had just enough glue

To put me back together again

Still beautiful and sparkling

But not so new

I know I’ve grown, there’s no doubt in that

But how I have done so,

Is what most will never understand

I have grown fresh wings, that are ready to fly

To new adventures and the far-off horizons

That are way, way up high

I’ve called in no favours or asked for help

I’ve had no one to lean on and have cried no tears

I have walked alone on my journey

That has lasted for so many years

On my hands and knees, I made it through

Getting hurt plenty along the way

But knowing, it was something

I just had I do

I have worked hard, to get my smile back

I have left no stone unturned

While searching for the lessons

Life had told me I still had to learn

I’m still broken

But in a much different kind of way

And though I’m good at ‘mending’ others

With the simple truths I say

All too often in my mind

My life has been in ‘pause’,

‘Rewind’, ‘action replay’

I must kerb my kindness, stop looking back

I must stop expecting to hear the word ‘thanks’

To be praised, acknowledged

Or receive that pat on the back

My soul has run on empty

For far too long

My heart is bursting with love to give

But no longer will I won’t waste it

On someone who is wrong…

Sharon Carter-Wray

Mon 6^th April 2020

06/04/2020 0

I, am not an easy person to forget

I, am not

An easy person to forget

Though my presence

May be gone

Memories of me

Definitely live on.

So many times

I have been revisited

By many who

Have walked away

Only to somehow

Find their way

Back to me again

I seldom cut ties

I am not an easy person to forget. Image: 39195241_1855545171188908_1715933924032512000_n — I am not an easy person to forget

I let the strings

Grow long

For unfinished business

Or for things left undone

They have been

Touched by me

So, they have to come

Words spoken or not

How I made them feel

They all have

A tiny part of them

That only I can heal…

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Tues 22^nd Oct 2019)

07/11/2019 0

I know who I am

I know who

I am meant to be

It has taken years

And many people

To fall away from me

For me to see my truth

And seek my

Own true destiny

Too many times

I have trusted too much

Believing a friend

To be a friend

Only to be let down

Once again

And oh my God

Does it hurt!

That feeling of betrayal

I never thought

I know again

Thought I’d ridded

Them from my life

But it seems

There are still some

Left hidden behind

I will speak my words

You speak yours

But let my words

Be repeated in truth

And not behind

Closed doors

Don’t make my words

Become yours

I know who I am

Meant to be

I know the meaning

Of the word

‘In-teg-rity’

Question that

Then you question me…

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Weds 4^thSeptember 2019)

05/11/2019 0

Pain

PAIN

Pain –

Such a small word

For what can be

A very big thing…

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Saturday 19^th October 2019)

21/10/2019 0

The quiet ones.

Those of us who suffer

Tend to be silent

With our struggles

And the ones

With nothing wrong

Complain…

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Sat 17^thAugust 2019)

27/08/2019 0

Have no regrets

Don’t, not say

What needs to be said

Don’t be hesitant

Or wait

It could end up being

All too late

And it will feel

Like an utter waste

A part of you

Will forever die

Just because you thought

You still had time

By then it’s too late

To be asking why

There is no other moment

No ‘other’ time

Don’t let people leave you

Bearing empty hearts

If you can fill it

With forgiveness

Joy or love

Once they’ve gone

There is no other

Second chance

Don’t leave things

Unfinished

Or undone

Make your peace

Or make amends

Tie up those loose ends

Have no regrets

Open your mouth

Speak your truth

And say the words

That need to be said

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Friday 9^thAugust 2019)

In loving memory of my beloved great aunt, who reached the age of 99, but sadly slipped away on Tues 6^thAug 2019, at 1.30 pm. ❤️❤️

27/08/2019 1

A heart full of graves

I’ve come to accept

Death, for what it is

A simple fact of life

It’s nothing we can

Escape from

From it, we cannot hide

This kind of closure

Is the definite kind

As we grow older

The more people

We lose

As we grow older

We accept with grace

That part of our heart

Is full of graves

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Saturday 3^rdAugust 2019)

09/08/2019 2

Who will catch me if I fall?

A question

I have asked myself

So many times

For as long as

I can recall

Who will be there

To catch me

If I should really fall?

No faces

Or person’s name ever

Comes to mind

No human walls

Surround me

It seems such

An empty space

Where once

It was so crowded

And now I see

Whilst on my knees

The truth

Before my eyes

No matter what

My crying call

As I tumble

To the floor

There has never been

Anyone with

Outstretched arms

To really break my fall

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Saturday 3^rdAugust 2019)

04/08/2019 0

Never thought I had the power to choose..

Never thought I had the

Power to choose

Until now

Another year older

Another level reached

Finally understood

The lessons life tried to teach

I laid myself down

For others to walk on

Be systematically abused

Forgetting that

I had a choice

In how I should be used

I put power

In the wrongs hands

Believing

They were there to hold me

But each time

I took that fall

I slipped through

Open fingers

Just like sand

Not sure what I’d find

As I headed to the ground

Found out I could

Bounce

And reach quite high

Learnt too late

The limits of others’ sky

I left it too late

To remove what was stale

Life is about taking chances

Making the wrong choices

And seeing where there go

All paths lead somewhere

But if I don’t walk them,

How will I know?

Never thought

I had the power to choose

But now I know I do…

Sharon Carter-Wray

(25th July 2019)

03/08/2019 5

Turned to stone.

Turned to stone

Something inside me

Has hardened

Turned to stone

That when I look

Ahead for footprints

There are only my own…

Sharon Carter-Wray

(1st August 2019)

01/08/2019 0

Serenity

Finally found some peace again

A place I can untangle

And unwind

Lost for a few days

I found some sanity

In a place

I’ll have to leave again

But these days

That pass long and slow

Retracing my steps

Picking up pieces

Of my lost soul

It’s the only place

I need come

When I have to let go

Sharon Carter-Wray

(25^thJuly 2019)

29/07/2019 1

Meeting people…

22/07/2019 0

Ever decreasing circles

There was a time

When I had many

People in my life

But now there seems…

So very few

It would appear

That as my age

In numbers has increased

The circle I am surrounded by

Has dwindled and declined

I am no less whole

I am more complete

Maybe, I don’t need an army

To stand up and march

On my own two feet.

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Weds 17^thJuly 2019)

17/07/2019 0

This new life

Built from empty promises

And broken dreams

Is going to be

The making of me

This new life

Belongs to me

There ain’t nobody else

Ever going to clip

My wings again

Or try to cage me

This new life

Came at a price

That no one else could pay

But things would have

Been very different

If I’d chosen silence

And didn’t leave

But stayed.

This new life

Is all about me

I’ve learnt

What it means to be happy

And that only I

Can set me free.

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Tues 16^thJuly 2019)

16/07/2019 0

My goals – revisited

My goals

It has taken me many years and thousands of words to get to this point of my journey; and now that I am here… I couldn’t be happier.

Until recently, I had never been brave enough, to showcase my written word to the world. But after posting on another site and getting a positive response, it seemed that launching my own site was the next natural goal to achieve.

I have only got this far, because writing is something that I love, and I have been so encouraged by readers around the world.

A new journey

This is the start of a new journey for me, and one I want to fully embrace. I am not sure how successful I will be, but I can only try my best and hope that my words reach far and wide.

So, my goals for this site are as follows:

To post at least 3 times a weeks
To actively participate and learn by visiting and reading other peoples blogs
To get my head round customising my site and using social media
To achieve a thousand reads by the end of March 2018
To eventually create my own book – long-term vision

I would like to think that these goals are not unreasonable or unreachable, but please wish me luck!

Sharon Carter-Wray

(2^ndApril 2018)

Update:

It’s now been 18 months since I created ‘a beautiful mind online’ and oh my, how I have grown since then!

I do remember having to think long and hard, about what I really wanted to achieve by creating this site. Initially, I had only planned for this to be a place to publish my written work, but as time passed; I also returned to my creative roots. And it soon became apparent that I needed a place to show my many lovely creations as well, and so my goal became to create a one stop shop for everything I do..

My self confidence has been restored, and even though I am frequently floored by illness, it has confirmed that I am still capable of many things.

As for my goals…

To post at least 3 times a week– I have done my best to achieve the goal, and have posted as often as I could, but on occasions it simply has not been possible.

To actively participate and learn by visiting and reading other peoples’ blogs– Not only did I write more, I was reading a lot more too! But after a while, it became too overwhelming, and I was spending hours on a daily basis trying to read everything. Everyday my mail box was filled with new postings, which meant I had little time for anything else.

To get my head round customising my site and using social media– I had quite a few issues when I began, but I am slowly mastering customising different areas of blogging, SEO’s, keywords etc. I now also have a ‘My kind of beautiful’ Facebook page, I am on Instagram, Tumblr and other writer/poetry websites. It is still a learning curve, but I’m getting there.

To achieve a thousand reads by the end of March 2018 – I didn’t check it at the time, but it now stands at over 5000 reads and 2800 visitors.I am more than happy with that! I feel truly blessed that my words and creations have reached out and touched so many people from around the world.

To eventually create my own book – long-term vision– This goal is still very much in the pipeline, I have at least signed up to a site to help me develop this idea. I feel like I have a lot of material to start the process, but I think I need guidance on what to actually include. But this was always a long-term goal, and will probably on come into play again, once I have got this site as I want it to be…

So, on the whole, I feel I’ve done okay. And in spite of health and other factors hindering me, I have still persevered and have gone from strength to strength.

I would like to say a big thank you to you – all my readers, likers and followers, because without you guys, this would all mean nothing. And for that, I am very humble and thankful. Sx ❤️

(Sunday 14^thJuly 2019)

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