A heart full of graves

A heart full of graves

I’ve come to accept

Death, for what it is

A simple fact of life

It’s nothing we can

Escape from

From it, we cannot hide

This kind of closure

Is the definite kind

As we grow older

The more people

We lose

As we grow older

We accept with grace

That part of our heart

Is full of graves

 

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Saturday 3rdAugust 2019)

 

Who will catch me if I fall?

Who will catch me if I fall?

A question

I have asked myself

So many times

For as long as

I can recall

Who will be there

To catch me

If I should really fall?

No faces

Or person’s name ever

Comes to mind

No human walls

Surround me

It seems such

An empty space

Where once

It was so crowded

And now I see

Whilst on my knees

The truth

Before my eyes

No matter what

My crying call

As I tumble

To the floor

There has never been

Anyone with

Outstretched arms

To really break my fall

 

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Saturday 3rdAugust 2019)

 

Never thought I had the power to choose..

Never thought I had the power to choose..

 

Never thought I had the

Power to choose

Until now

Another year older

Another level reached

Finally understood

The lessons life tried to teach

I laid myself down

For others to walk on

Be systematically abused

Forgetting that

I had a choice

In how I should be used

I put power

In the wrongs hands

Believing

They were there to hold me

But each time

I took that fall

I slipped through

Open fingers

Just like sand

Not sure what I’d find

As I headed to the ground

Found out I could

Bounce

And reach quite high

Learnt too late

The limits of others’ sky

 

I left it too late

To remove what was stale

Life is about taking chances

Making the wrong choices

And seeing where there go

All paths lead somewhere

But if I don’t walk them,

How will I know?

Never thought

I had the power to choose

But now I know I do…

 

Sharon Carter-Wray

(25th July 2019)

 

 

 

 

 

Turned to stone.

Turned to stone

Something inside me

Has hardened

Turned to stone

That when I look

Ahead for footprints

There are only my own…

 

Sharon Carter-Wray

(1st August 2019)

 

Serenity

Serenity

Finally found some peace again

A place I can untangle

And unwind

Lost for a few days

I found some sanity

In a place

I’ll have to leave again

But these days

That pass long and slow

Retracing my steps

Picking up pieces

Of my lost soul

It’s the only place

I need come

When I have to let go

 

Sharon Carter-Wray

(25th July 2019)

 

 

Ever decreasing circles

Ever decreasing circles

There was a time

When I had many

People in my life

But now there seems…

So very few

It would appear

That as my age

In numbers has increased

The circle I am surrounded by

Has dwindled and declined

I am no less whole

I am more complete

Maybe, I don’t need an army

To stand up and march

On my own two feet.

 

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Weds 17thJuly 2019)

This new life

This new life

This new life

Built from empty promises

And broken dreams

Is going to be

The making of me

This new life

Belongs to me

There ain’t nobody else

Ever going to clip

My wings again

Or try to cage me

This new life

Came at a price

That no one else could pay

But things would have

Been very different

If I’d chosen silence

And didn’t leave

But stayed.

This new life

Is all about me

I’ve learnt

What it means to be happy

And that only I

Can set me free.

 

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Tues 16thJuly 2019)

My goals – revisited

My goals

It has taken me many years and thousands of words to get to this point of my journey; and now that I am here… I couldn’t be happier.

Until recently, I had never been brave enough, to showcase my written word to the world.  But after posting on another site and getting a positive response, it seemed that launching my own site was the next natural goal to achieve.

I have only got this far, because writing is something that I love, and I have been so encouraged by readers around the world.

A new journey

This is the start of a new journey for me, and one I want to fully embrace. I am not sure how successful I will be, but I can only try my best and hope that my words reach far and wide.

So, my goals for this site are as follows:

  • To post at least 3 times a weeks
  • To actively participate and learn by visiting and reading other peoples blogs
  • To get my head round customising my site and using social media
  • To achieve a thousand reads by the end of March 2018
  • To eventually create my own book – long-term vision

I would like to think that these goals are not unreasonable or unreachable, but please wish me luck!

Sharon Carter-Wray

(2ndApril 2018)

Update:

It’s now been 18 months since I created ‘a beautiful mind online’ and oh my, how I have grown since then!

I do remember having to think long and hard, about what I really wanted to achieve by creating this site.  Initially, I had only planned for this to be a place to publish my written work, but as time passed; I also returned to my creative roots.  And it soon became apparent that I needed a place to show my many lovely creations as well, and so my goal became to create a one stop shop for everything I do..

My self confidence has been restored, and even though I am frequently floored by illness, it has confirmed that I am still capable of many things.

As for my goals…

  1. To post at least 3 times a week– I have done my best to achieve the goal, and have posted as often as I could, but on occasions it simply has not been possible.
  1. To actively participate and learn by visiting and reading other peoples’ blogs– Not only did I write more, I was reading a lot more too!  But after a while, it became too overwhelming, and I was spending hours on a daily basis trying to read everything.  Everyday my mail box was filled with new postings, which meant I had little time for anything else.
  1. To get my head round customising my site and using social media– I had quite a few issues when I began, but I am slowly mastering customising different areas of blogging, SEO’s, keywords etc. I now also have a ‘My kind of beautiful’ Facebook page, I am on Instagram, Tumblr and other writer/poetry websites.  It is still a learning curve, but I’m getting there.
  1. To achieve a thousand reads by the end of March 2018 – I didn’t check it at the time, but it now stands at over 5000 reads and 2800 visitors.I am more than happy with that!  I feel truly blessed that my words and creations have reached out and touched so many people from around the world.
  1. To eventually create my own book – long-term vision– This goal is still very much in the pipeline, I have at least signed up to a site to help me develop this idea. I feel like I have a lot of material to start the process, but I think I need guidance on what to actually include.  But this was always a long-term goal, and will probably on come into play again, once I have got this site as I want it to be…

So, on the whole, I feel I’ve done okay.  And in spite of health and other factors hindering me, I have still persevered and have gone from strength to strength.

I would like to say a big thank you to you – all my readers, likers and followers, because without you guys, this would all mean nothing. And for that, I am very humble and thankful.  Sx ❤️

(Sunday 14thJuly 2019)

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