Changing partners

Where is my perfect man?

We hunt

We chase

Making pairs

Is a never-ending craze!

We hide, we seek

We laugh, we weep

All in the name of love

Match making

Score taking

What kind of game

Is this that we play?

Engagement?

Marriage?

For me?

No way!

Filling my bed

Taking away my head

Wham! Bam!

Thank you Ma’am!

Yet another score!

Become a rated number?

No chance, not anymore!

You win some

You lose some

“Plenty more fish in the sea”

I’m done with fishing

They can try and catch me!

Monday, Tuesday

Every day it’s the same

It’s one hell of a joke

This mating game!

Sharon Carter-Wray

(26th January 1986)

I forgive you

I have searched my soul

So many times

Searching for the answers

To why you did me wrong

What did I really do

To bring this vengefulness on?

For quite some time

I took the blame

It made it easier

To hide your behaviour

Conceal your shame

I know

How you speak

Behind my back

You do it about others

To my face

Why would I expect you

To not treat me the same?

You showed your warmth

But all I felt was cold

Doesn’t matter

How you wrapped me

You couldn’t keep hold

You think you are

Better than me

When will you understand

That you are not?

It’s not about

Who’s got the upper-hand

Or whom it is

You to choose to compete

Just know that

I am happy

Standing alone

On my own two feet

Whatever you have said

Whatever you have done

I have already dealt with

Put in its place

And overcome

You are weak

And oh, so shallow

You cannot help

Being who you are

And doing what you do

And because of that

I forgive you

 

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Weds 13th February 2019)

 

4. JOY

Such a small word that has a huge meaning!

Joy is something else I always strive for.  I find joy in the simplest of things, whether it’s a pretty creation I’ve made, a piece art I have done, or just spending time doing anything that makes me feel uplifted.   Just doing the things that I enjoy, makes me feel good about myself, and it’s something I can’t get enough of, it makes me thrive.  Another thing I always say is:

“Out of my misery something beautiful is always created”.

Because it’s often at these times that I am most imaginative.

So, I am going to promise myself that I will make more room in my life so that I have the proper time to follow my heart.

Sharon Carter-Wray

(31st December 2016)

Update:

I am pleased to say that in spite of having such bad health over the last couple of years, I have at least continued to be as creative as I can be.  After this entry, I began creating a scrapbook full of the inspirational quotes and words, many of which had been previously stuck to my walls as daily visual reminders.  It has been a labour of love creating this book, as each page has been hand-decorated in a variety of different ways, making it a beautiful book to pick and browse through.  I still have several more pages to do, before this first book is completed, it is not something to be rushed, and If I’m honest I will have many more of these to do.  If you would like to see some of these scrapbook pages I have added some photos under my lovely creations tab.

The other positive thing that has happened, is that I have taken up my writing again, something that has been dormant for quite a while.  I was inspired to put pen to paper, fingers to keyboard, and I haven’t looked back.  So much so, it’s what brought about “My kind of beautiful”, and for that I am very thankful.Word art: JOY 4

I have bottled up so much up over the years, not realising just how fundamental it was for me to write my feelings out.  It was also the inspiration behind the word art “Joy” that I did, because the word itself is important to me.

It was such an important reawakening for me, to once again have an avenue to channel my thoughts and emotions.  It feels like finding an old friend again…

It gives me great joy to see the words I have strung together and the creations I have made on my website and other social media.  It is even better knowing that I have the courage to put myself and my truth out there, and that I am touching so many strangers who are responding back.

I don’t feel unheard anymore, and whatever else may still be lacking in my life, at least joy is not one of them.

Sx ❤️

(updated Weds 13th February 2019)

 

Scrapbook pages 1 – 5

The start of the journey… 

This scrapbook is made up of a collection of quotes, sayings, jokes and thoughts, some of which I have written myself.  I used to pin them up on the wall in my old snug where I used to live, but I have way too many to do that now.  So I decided that creating this scrapbook, would be a wonderful opportunity to display them instead.

I have tried to make each page as individual as I can, using all sorts of available media and cutting out shapes myself.  It has been a labour of love creating this book, which I hope others may one day pick up and feel uplifted and or inspired! Sx ❤️

Page 1

Scrapbook page 2

Pages 2-3

Pages 4-5

 

Returning to the crime scene

It is a wonderful thought

That I have many people

Of whom I have crossed paths

At some time in my life

Who seem to naturally

Keep gravitating back to me

It is a blessing

That I have somehow

Touched them in a way

Or left such a mark

That they are unable

To forget me

No matter how many

Days, months or years

Have passed since contact

For some reason

They find their way back

They all know

They did wrong by me

I did not deserve

What they gave

Maybe they’ve seen their light

Seek forgiveness

For the errors of their ways

Maybe they’re hoping

To still make things right

Even though

They already know

There’s not a hope in sight.

Whatever their reason

Once more to my door

It seems they are

Compelled to return

Whether to find balance

Or settle an old score

Maybe to check

If I am still nice

And as kind

I was with them before

I am glad

I have left a mark

Visible only to them

I’m glad if it burns

And brings about regret

That I come to mind

Jarring an odious recall

If I still make them

Think of me

Because once

I’d have given them anything

Anything at all.

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Friday 8th February 2019)

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