Letting go: 6. Intuition

“I was blessed with this gift, and it has never let me down, if I’ve made a bad choice it’s usually because I have ignored my gut instinct, when I should have known better”. 

I have believed for a long time that not everything is worth fighting for, and I have spilt enough blood and wasted too much time already battling unwinnable or futile causes.

I say this is a gift, because I have the uncanny ability to be able to see through other people’s problems, and guide them on what the real issues are.  I am able to explore different angles and perspectives, and untangle the real mysteries behind their problems.  I have people who lean on me for this, but it isn’t something I am always thanked for, as not everyone has a stomach for my brutal candor, but it’s what they come for.  They come to me for truth, and that’s exactly what I give them, and somehow, I seem to manage to get right down to the roots of the problem and at least open their minds to reason or a different level of understanding.

I never speak ‘off the top of my head’, and I am always able to back up what I say with good reason.  It’s as though I go deep into the recesses of my mind and can draw on an experience from somewhere in my past, that is relevant. 

Maybe that’s why I seldom confide in others, because somewhere I know the answer already exists in me, I just have to think it through.  I firmly believe that in my life, no matter what the situation is, I have already dealt with far worse and come through it. 

My comtemplation stonesThis way of thinking has kept me positive, and made me feel so much stronger.  This is why writing is so important to me, this is my way of sorting through the muddle in my mind, and seeing it in black and white print.  Writing gives me clarity, like solving a mathematical equation.  It allows me to explore my thoughts, and to be picked up and carried away with them, so I can deal with my demons and dilemmas.  From an early age it was a skill that gave me some form of comfort and expression, and it is one I cannot do without.

Intuition has protected me, prepared me and given me such an understanding of who I really am, and who others are too.  But there have been times, I have mistakenly given others the benefit of the doubt, and have got burnt fingers for the privilege.

At least I now know to never ignore it again!

Sharon Carter-Wray

(31st December 2016)

Update:

I can think of so many occasions when my intuition has served me so well in the last few years.  My ability to read between the lines and see behinds the scenes, has saved me from much unnecessary angst and misery.  I have learned to walk away from people and situations that no longer serve me, or have no sense of feel-good about them.

00948-in2bthe2bendI have steadfastly stuck by this, and in turn my state of mind and life have improved, my self-confidence and belief in my talents have blossomed and I actually feel quite happy.

I want and need for nothing that money can buy, and in my eyes, it’s a wonderful place to be.  Sx ❤️

(Sunday 17th March 2019)

 

 

 

 

Be your own woman 2

My contribution to International Women’s Day! Sx ❤️

Be your own woman 2

Be your own woman 2

Be your own woman

Not the one

The world tells you to be.

Be your own woman

The one you were raised to be

Stand proud and tall

Take your place

Don’t look down to your feet

Be your own woman

Know your own mind

Be independent and free

Speak your own truth

Know that you are enough

That you are complete

Be your own woman

Be a queen, not a lioness

Seek nothing but the best

But remember at all times

You owe back nothing less

Be your own woman

Be feminine

And full of grace

Understand there is

More to beauty

Than just your face

Be your own woman

Love openly and deep

Do what you need to do

To lift up and

Praise your sisters

As they would do you

Be you own woman

Be mighty and strong

Recognise your power

And the moments

When you should lead

So be your own woman

And not the one

The world tells you to be

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Fri 8thMarch 2019)

International women’s days

 

 

53

Fast approaching 53

It’s about time

I be, who I’m meant to be

It’s time for change

I can’t move on

If things just

Stay the same

There is only one thing

That I am desperate for

And still it’s remains

Out of my reach

It would appear

That all the men I meet

Seem to think

They have a lesson to teach

But I am old school

Not quite

4 score and twenty

But of lets downs

And insincerity

Believe me

I have had plenty

I had spent

Way too much time

With the wrong man

And even though it’s over

I’m still paying for the crime

But now as I reach

The tender age of 53

I realise that

He has no hold on me

Of the shadows

That he left

I have no more need to look

I’ve wiped clean his pages

It’s time to start writing

A brand new book

When I became free

I embraced the life

That lay ahead of me

How little I knew

How troubled my road

Had intended to be

I’ve come of age

Once again

It’s time to break

My invisible chains

I am becoming

Who I am meant to be

I am still growing

And I still sparkle

At the tender age of 53

 

Sharon Carter-Wray

(20thJune 2018)

Fresh blood

The wind of change

Has breezed through

And changed it’s course

Making me turn

Another corner

To see things

From another side

Pride and self-respect

Have kept me in check

For longer than I care

And all I can ask myself

Is why and what for?

Whom does it really serve?

Not me

It has only helped

To keep me on my own

To preserve my solitude

To nurture my reluctance

And goad my unwillingness

To take a chance

But, aren’t I the one

Who normally chants

To all women to embrace

Their inner beauty and power?

Isn’t that me?

So what the hell

Am I doing with mine?

I already know

What part of my future holds

So I need to make the most

Of what fresh blood

Is still out there

While I can still taste it

Whilst it’s so readily on offer

After all

What do I have to lose?

And does it really matter?

 

But I must be the one

To make that choice

It is not for

Others to choose

The silenced words

From many years ago

Still ring in my ears

Now I really understand

What that man

Wanted to me to hear

Sharon Carter-Wray

 

(10th August 2017)

Thank you!

Hey there readers,

Thanks to all of you who responded to my cry for help the other day.

I realised that what I actually needed to do was to walk away from it for a few days, and then revisit it in a much calmer and relaxed state of mind!

So that’s what I did and hey ho, today everything is back on track, and I have much clearer idea of what I am doing!

Anyway, I hope you’re all having a good day!  Sx 🙂

 

No matter what…

No matter what

You do or say

I will always rise up

To fight another day

No matter what

You feel for me

You’ve been part of my life

And you will always be

Sharon Carter-Wray

 

(26th march 2018)

I owe you one!

To all the people in my life

Thank you

Keep doing, what you’re doing

Because of you…

I have grown

Sharon Carter-Wray

(10/05/16)

 

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