A temporary glitch

I am so tired of being let down

I am so tired of other peoples’ stupid drama

After all that I have recently been through

What has been making me happy

Has now saddened my mood.

What lifted me up, has dropped me down

Without a hint

And without a sound

I’ve always questioned, if I give too much

But I know I am wrong to ask

It is in my nature to be kind and true

I cannot curb what comes so easily

Or pretend to be anything

Other than just me

I know I will get over this spell

Disappointment will wash away

My confidence will be rebuilt with an extra shield

My heart will be lifted again

And my smile, with reinstate itself

It is just another temporary glitch

Just like the person who caused it

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Sunday 7^th October 2018)

25/11/2019 0

Closing another door

I did something brave

I closed the door

On someone who meant

A lot to me

I finally

Gave myself closure

To something

That was holding me back

Having carved its’ initials

On my already frightened

And fragile heart

I waited too long

For something I knew

Was never

Going to be mine

I didn’t want it

To be mine

I only wanted to travel

A short while

On his journey

To help him see

That there are still

Good people out here

Good people like me

Who are meant

To be friends

And not enemies

I reached out to

Another tortured soul

Recognising the signs

Of hurtful despair

But I gave too much

And took back so little

Never once

Asking for more

And now that I feel

So empty

It’s the right time

To close that door.

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Tues 22^nd October 2019)

22/10/2019 0

Do not feel sorry for me.

22/07/2019 0

Abandonment issues

22/07/2019 0

Woman

You know not your

Own strength

Or the power that

Truly resides

In your hands

You have the universe

At your finger tips

And the world

At your feet

Understand your value

Know your worth

You are the reason

That man

Can walk this earth

Sharon Carter-Wray

(11th January 2018)

First published 2nd July 2018

16/07/2019 2

This new life

Built from empty promises

And broken dreams

Is going to be

The making of me

This new life

Belongs to me

There ain’t nobody else

Ever going to clip

My wings again

Or try to cage me

This new life

Came at a price

That no one else could pay

But things would have

Been very different

If I’d chosen silence

And didn’t leave

But stayed.

This new life

Is all about me

I’ve learnt

What it means to be happy

And that only I

Can set me free.

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Tues 16^thJuly 2019)

16/07/2019 0

Give me one good reason why

Give me one good reason

Give me one good reason why

I shouldn’t have

Given up on you?

Turned my back, walked away

To start over and begin anew?

Give me one good reason why

I should still give you my time

To listen as you share

Your woes and dreams

Even though you won’t hear

One word I speak about mine?

Give me one good reason why

I should have spent my time

Living in your shadow

Being unnoticed and

Blocked by your shade

When all I wanted

Was to glow and shine?

Give me one good reason why

I should’ve stayed

When everything around

Told me to leave?

Your silence may have quietly

Wanted me to remain

But it’s in your words and actions

That I truly believe

Give me one good reason why

I should’ve believed in you

While you have so little

Faith in yourself?

You’re driven by a fury

There’s no room for anything else

Give me one good reason why

I should’ve loved you

Laid myself out, bare on a plate?

You had your turn, you picked over me

Then pushed me to one side

You had my love once

And now it’s just too late

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Tues 26^thFebruary 2019)

28/06/2019 3

Just another box

So many times

I have searched

And sorted

The corners of my mind

Rearranging pieces

To find a better fit

Attempting to create

A different picture

That is far

From the truth

Brightly coloured

Shards of glass

Though pretty

Still draw blood

Flaunting my mistakes

In spite of

My wearing gloves

They did not come

From a place of love

So many bad things

Have been packed away

In boxes labelled

‘Closure’, ‘What the Hell?’ or

Simply ‘Not today’

Boxes, that I hope

I will never reason to

Ever open again

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Friday 17^thMay 2019)

Link to: Life laundry

19/05/2019 0

I am enough

I do not need to be told

No man will complete me

No money will

Make me whole

I am enough

As I stand here

So mighty, so tall

Many have tried

To break me

Many more have failed

Thinking I need them

To blow wind in my sails

I am enough

I have nothing to prove

And just as equally

I have nothing to lose

I am enough

See that I am a Queen

For that is whom

I have become

I need no crown

No sparkly jewels

I am armoured plated

By life’s unfair rules

I am enough

I am strong and proud

And like a true warrior woman

I will shout this out loud

Sharon Carter-Wray

(6th January 2018)

Links to:

Artwork: I am enough

Blog: A new dawn

14/05/2019 3

Damaged

No one can see

The real damage

That has been done to me

I do not wear it

Boldly on my sleeve

I am not looking

For kindness

Or empathy

I know who I am

It’s not what I need

But just because

You can’t see my pain

Doesn’t mean

It isn’t there

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Weds 24^thApril 2019)

24/04/2019 0

I’ve learnt how to fly

4 years ago, I walked away

From a life that had once

Held so much hope

But was destined

Not to last

It had a life span

Of time to be served

Too long for my liking

And not what I deserved

A painful lesson

I had to learn

But it was all part

Of life’s learning curve

I took my own sweet time

To walk away

Had no idea

Of the penance

I would finally pay

Just knew

I had to be saved

Or be chased

To an early suicidal grave

But 4 years have gone

And my oh my

How I’ve moved on

The bittersweet taste

Left in my mouth

Is no longer as strong

I’ve grown new wings

I have learnt how to fly

I’ve been taught

What to take with me

What to leave behind

I now understand

That bags emblazoned

Love and Friendship

Weigh me down

They don’t help me climb

But true friendship

Like air helps me rise

I’m going places

That is for sure

But you have a choice

You can either come with me

Or stay

right

there

At the door.

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Weds 17^thApril 2019)

Happy Anniversary to me! 4 years since moving on…. Sx ❤️

17/04/2019 2

I will not go back

I will not go back

I have been reminded

Of a time and place

From my not too distant past

A place of sadness

A home of shattered glass

A time of great illusion

And spoken words

Not meant to last

I was left almost broken

When I was most in need

Few had thought

I would move on

Few had wished

I would succeed

Few had little faith

Or belief in me

It is not for me

To prove them wrong

Their effect on me

Was not that strong

But the feelings

That came with it

Were not meant to lift me

Only bring me down

Now they are where

They justly belong

I am free of that torment

I am free of my fears

I’m done with crying

Done waiting for change

I’ve grown now

I have no further need

For that kind of pain

Love me or lose me

There is no in between

Cherish or adore me

Please just don’t

Test and tease

Beneath my skin

A silent rage is stirring

Itching to be released

So careful how you push me

Don’t try to do me down

I will not welcome memories

From a place where

I’ve just come

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Weds 3^rd April 2019)

07/04/2019 2

Untouched

No one

Has ever truly touched my soul

Reached the part of me

Where the fire burns

Delivering my glow

They have used their feet

To walk circles around me

Drawing boundaries

Slow and steady as they go

Inhibiting my growth

Clasping my ambition

In a stranglehold

No one

Has ever truly reached me

Delved down

Into the corners of my mind

They have scratched

At the surface

Believing that was all

There was to find

Little did they know

My kind of beauty comes

From way down deep inside

No one

Has ever truly embraced me

In a way

That makes me feel divine

They have used their hands

To touch my body

And their fingertips

To spell out the lies

And hugged me close

With insincerity

Dancing behind their eyes

No one

Has ever truly known

What it is that is missing

Or what it is I seek

I’m a very complicated woman

But with very simple needs

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Tues 2nd April 2019)

04/04/2019 3

I am the light, I am the darkness

I am the light

That adds the sunshine

To your day

When your skies turn

From azure blue to grey

I am the one who will

Hold you close

So you can feel my love

As I kiss & hug those

Dark clouds away

By your side I will be

When you have fallen

To your knees

I’ll be there without question

When I hear your lonely

Unspoken pleas

All I ask is

You do the same for me

I am the darkness

Casting shadows

In your mind

Leaving traces of regret

A constant reminder

Of a loss you can’t forget

No amount of sorrow

No amount of shame

Can bring back the time

You’d wish to reset

What’s been said

Has been said

What is done, is done

And because of that

You’re feeling cold

And all alone

If you had only chosen

Not to bring the night

I would have gladly

Shared my brilliant light

But instead you chose

To abuse its’ glow

And now you’ve lost

This beautiful soul

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Friday 22^ndMarch 2019)

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Will you catch me if I should fall?

Will you catch me

If I should fall?

Or would you just let me

Tumble down to the floor?

Would you open the door

When in my need

I came to call

Or would you hide

within the dark shadows

And deny me?

Would you open your ears

And your heart

If I came to air ‘my’ pain?

Would you listen to understand

Or with the intent

To dismiss or blame?

If I bared my soul

Open wide to you

So, you could step right in

Would you accept the invite

Or hold back and refrain?

Would you pass the threshold

Or simply just peer in?

If I share with you

My deepest thoughts

And highest dreams

Would you encourage

Or just mock me?

If I came to you

In need of love

Would you hold me dear

And cherish me?

Could you give me

What I need?

Or would you turn your back

And pretend you hadn’t seen?

You see, to you

I have become invisible

But yet you still expect me

To be the same

How can I still place

My trust in your hands

When you no longer care?

Or ask you to nurture my heart

Or believe and support

All that I stand for?

When I don’t believe

For one moment

That you’d catch me

If I should ever fall?

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Mon 4^th February 2019)

04/02/2019 0

I left you, for me…

Do not for one moment

Feel proud

For what you’ve done

And do not believe

That you have somehow

Reduced me

You do not have that power

Just as you cannot be

The master of me

Don’t think for a second

That your insincere words

Or idle gossip

Has left me damaged

Or wounded me

My skin thickened

When I saw sense

And I began to self-heal

Do not be mistaken

In believing that

You,

Walked away from me

Think again

Who really took

That first step away?

Was it you, or was it me?

Whose back is turned?

Who do you no longer

Hear from or see?

Do not be fooled

If you think you have won

I have not stopped

I’ve only just begun

I called you out

A long time ago

I recognised your

Bitter & twisted soul

So, though you may believe

That I am lost without you

That I am lonely, at odds

Ill at ease

Just ponder this…

I-left-you… for ME.

Sharon Carter-Wray

(25^thJanuary 2019)

25/01/2019 1

Before you judge me

Check with who’s eyes

You really see

Are they truthful?

Are they sincere?

Are they coloured

Green with envy

Or grey and empty?

Before you judge me

Sit back and wait awhile

Watch my selfless actions

Hear my heartfelt given advice

Then listen to all their

Hushed whispers and lies

And ask yourself

If I would really

Commit such crimes?

Before you judge me

Take a look into my life

See for yourself

That I am content

See that I am enough

I’ve no need to cause

Another mans’ strife

What would I have to gain

By bringing about or enjoying

Another persons’ pain?

Before you judge me

Take a good, long, hard

Look at yourself

Find out the root of

What of drives you so

Question the standards

You have set

Understand what measures

You use as your guide

Get behind your true reasons

For doubting

What you know is real

Then and only then

Can you judge me

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Monday 5^thNovember 2018)

05/11/2018 0

The narcissist

Why did I have to be the one to die

Just so that you could fly?

Why did I have to cry

Just to make you smile?

Why did I have to lie

Just so you could remain disguised?

Why did I have to hide

Just because of your pride?

Why did I stay

Just for you to push me away?

Why did I still care

Just so you could strip me bare?

Why did I take all the blame

Just because you had no shame?

Why did I have to leave you?

Because you took everything

Except my name.

Sharon Carter-Wray

(5^th November 2017)

Link to: Ready to love again

03/11/2018 1

I needed you as much

How can I deny you kindness

When it’s so obvious

It’s what you need?

Why would I deny you my love

Just because

You’re down on your knees?

Why would I say no to you

When you have such

A great need of me?

I needed you as much

I would have given

So much more

This is not

How things should end

But you made me

Turn away and leave

If only you would

Take the time

To recognise me

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Monday 29^thOctober 2018)

01/11/2018 0

You changed me

In so many ways

It’s hard to remember

Who I was

Before the ‘you’ days

You changed me

You cut through me

And left deep scars

That still flow

Within my veins

You changed me

With your dirty footprints

That you meant to

Stamp on my heart

You changed me

With the memories

That still linger

Ghosting my shadows

Still looking

For places to hide

You changed me

You took away my faith

You, replaced it with

Needless anger and hate

But you couldn’t

Hurt my pride

You changed me

You made hard

What was once so soft

And so very giving

You spoiled me

For any other

You changed me

I can still see your face

I can still hear

Your vile words

And untruths

Ringing in my ears

You changed me

You took the best

Of what you thought

I had to give

Without a sideway glance

You turned your back

Thinking I stood

Broken without a chance

You changed me

You made me into

The woman I am today

Your harsh words

And split tongue

Only showed you

For the Devil you are

You changed me

You throttled my dreams

And dampened my desire

But you only proved

What I always knew

I should have aimed higher

You changed me

You made me doubtful

Question my worth

But I am gold to your sand

And just like everything

I slipped through

Your grasping hands

You changed me

But I changed for the better

I have severed my ties

I have no more anger

Or tears still to cry

Was this a lesson

For us to both learn by?

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Thurs 25^thOctober 2018)

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