I, am not an easy person to forget

I, am not an easy person to forget

I, am not

An easy person to forget

Though my presence

May be gone

Memories of me

Definitely live on.

So many times

I have been revisited

By many who

Have walked away

Only to somehow

Find their way

Back to me again

I seldom cut ties

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I am not an easy person to forget

I let the strings

Grow long

For unfinished business

Or for things left undone

They have been

Touched by me

So, they have to come

Words spoken or not

How I made them feel

They all have

A tiny part of them

That only I can heal…

 

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Tues 22nd Oct 2019)

 

 

 

 

 

 

Letting go: 11.  And finally…

Letting go: 11.  And finally…

In closing, I had no idea that I had so much that I needed to get out of my system; before I enter into this new year.  All I do know is that I have to let my demons go, and leave them where they truly belong, in the past.  They have haunted me for too long, and they have no place in my plans or where I’m going next.
Tonight, I will toast myself at the last stroke of midnight, and kiss goodbye to those painful ghosts of the past.

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Tonight, I will be raising a glass to what a truly amazing and remarkable woman I am and have become.

Because tomorrow, is indeed a brand-new day in a brand-new life for me!

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Sat 31st December 2016)

Update:

In a couple of months, it will be 3 years since I wrote the series of ‘Letting go’.  At the time, it marked a very important period of my life, when I seriously looked at my health, my life and the people in it.  In order for me to grow, I recognised and knew that things had to change.

Thinking back, I had been facing and overcame so many difficult obstacles, both personal and physical.  Some have been completely eradicated from my life, but there are some that still take me by surprise.  But, I am only human, and cannot safeguard myself against everyone that doesn’t understand or appreciate me.  When I read back over the words that came from me, I realised that I had been carrying the pain and weight of some many things.  Luggage, that wasn’t mine, so it’s no wonder why I felt so utterly deflated and exhausted by it.

I had no idea what life would truly hold for me when I was young, unknowingly to me, my physical health problems had already begun and depression had made a friend of me.  Both these things, eventually took a greater hold of me as I aged, but essentially the person I was, never really changed.

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Letting go: 12 And finally… 2

In spite of the battles that I have fought, none have truly defeated me.  Instead, I called on my ‘free spirit’ and I have fought alone, to become the woman I was meant to be.  Never have I allowed my issues to define me, I’ve remained positive, focussed and have worn a smile, even though smiling was the last thing I wanted to do.   And I am so proud of her/me today, because this is who I am.0

And I am only best at being me.

For a long time, I have said and totally believe that:

“No matter what happens in my life, I have dealt with far worse already”.

Sharon.

(Tues 22nd Oct 2019)

I know who I am

I know who I am

I know who I am

I know who

I am meant to be

It has taken years

And many people

To fall away from me

For me to see my truth

And seek my

Own true destiny

Too many times

I have trusted too much

Believing a friend

To be a friend

Only to be let down

Once again

And oh my God

Does it hurt!

That feeling of betrayal

I never thought

I know again

Thought I’d ridded

Them from my life

But it seems

There are still some

Left hidden behind

I will speak my words

You speak yours

But let my words

Be repeated in truth

And not behind

Closed doors

Don’t make my words

Become yours

I know who I am

I know who I am

Meant to be

I know the meaning

Of the word

‘In-teg-rity’

Question that

Then you question me…

 

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Weds 4thSeptember 2019)

 

 

 

 

Closing another door

Closing another door

I did something brave

I closed the door

On someone who meant

A lot to me

I finally

Gave myself closure

To something

That was holding me back

Having carved its’ initials

On my already frightened

And fragile heart

I waited too long

For something I knew

Was never

Going to be mine

I didn’t want it

To be mine

I only wanted to travel

A short while

On his journey

To help him see

That there are still

Good people out here

Good people like me

Who are meant

To be friends

And not enemies

I reached out to

Another tortured soul

Recognising the signs

Of hurtful despair

But I gave too much

And took back so little

Never once

Asking for more

And now that I feel

So empty

It’s the right time

To close that door.

 

Sharon Carter-Wray

(Tues 22nd October 2019)

 

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